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Thursday, December 17, 2020

Every year, around this time, I wish it was 2008. I reminisce. Magic happened. Hasn't been the same since. But Alas, a look into the future....

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

On my old blog I used to use it as a diary, it used to help afterwards because it felt good to get it off of my chest, so im going to do that here, today. i havent written out my feelings in a long time so here we go...

i feel like everyone has someone but me. everyone is someones number 1 but me. if it came down to it and the world was coming to an end and all the people in my life got to pick one person to save, i wouldnt be picked. on some real shit...thats been a thought for a couple of weeks now. and its no ones fault, its not mine its not the people around me its just the way it is. i believe in myself but i also believe that if i wasnt here people wouldnt exactly miss me. i mean dont get me wrong i have a lot of wonderful people in my life that loves me, but no one loves me first. and not on any kind of suicidal thing because i know im going to be successful and that just means less people to worry about when i reach my success. but wanting to be loved first is kind of a selfish way to put it but love is being selfish. its a harsh reality that ive faced with the loss of my mother, an absent father and family, and friends that have other agendas, once again nothings wrong with that, i had my own agendas as well im just sayin. people go through different things in their lives and im just another human being in this world. who really cares.